Friday, 30 June 2017

The Time Has Come To Say Goodbye..


It's now been just over a week since I had my last GCSE exam - ever. Although the days usually go slowly whilst at school, looking back on my time makes me realise that the years really do fly by without anybody even batting an eyelid until it's too late.
Now, I'm not going to sit here and make out like the whole 5 years were the best times of my life. That would be quite a large exaggeration to say the least. Having said that, each moment and each year was a part of the experience and I guess it wouldn't be the same if anything had changed.
Year 7-9 were probably the hardest years, as I wasn't coping that well as I had an awful lot going on in my mind, which, paired with bullying, didn't help matters. I felt incredibly isolated and I'd push myself away from people, just because I didn't know how to cope with social situations or conversations.
However, once my GCSE's had begun towards the end of Year 9, things gradually started to improve. I got more involved with my group of girl friends and I began to let my hair down a little. I wasn't so afraid of going in every day anymore. I had people who could make me smile and laugh. I had people that I felt wouldn't judge me when I ate my lunch (even though nobody really cared anyway). Even though there were still down days, I just felt accepted and like I actually belonged within a group.
Year 10 and 11 were the best years out of my entire journey in secondary school. I was doing subjects that I enjoyed and although they did get slightly boring towards the end of certain modules, I'm pretty sure I wouldn't have changed them. I got to spend more time having a laugh with my friends and I also proved to myself that I was capable of talking to new people and stepping out of my comfort zone. I worked really hard throughout these 2 years in particular and it's surreal that I've had my last day of Year 11 and my last exam!
Despite the fact the school itself wasn't always a positive, welcoming environment, I tried my best to be positive each day. I was happy to take risks, I was happy to challenge myself and I was happy to put 100% into my studying in preparation for the final exams.
My main friendship group consisted of Zahirah, Nadia, Tara, Megan and Immy. We never really got involved with the rest of our year, because we were happy just standing around and cracking our own jokes. We may have referred to ourselves as the loners for 99.9% of the time, but honestly, it just made my time at school that bit more special.
I'm planning on going back in September to join the Sixth Form to do Psychology and Health and Social Care. It's an anxious wait until I get my GCSE grades on the 24th August, but I know I tried my best and that's all that matters. Whatever happens will happen and I'm prepared to accept the results for what they are.
Secondary school has taught me many things over the 5 years. It's taught me to have faith and confidence in myself, to take a risk and challenge myself in anyway that I can, even if it's an uncomfortable choice at first, to smile and speak to everyone that I meet when possible, to work hard for my dreams and it's also taught me to be more vigilant with who I trust, but to never judge people upon their appearance/first impressions. Yes, first impressions are important, but there's usually more to a person and their character than what initially meets the eye.
I probably won't miss my secondary school all that much, unless I'm reminiscing with others or listening to certain songs/thinking of certain memories. That doesn't mean I won't forget it though. I'll still miss the little things. My crazy BTEC Business lessons with Mr Bhura, where I'd mess around with Jess and where everyone else would completely lose their maturity and turn into giggly little children again. I'll also miss Citizenship lessons with Jess from Year 11, because we didn't get on particularly well in those as far as learning went, but we had a laugh and got completely side-tracked most of the time! I'll miss my English class, because although we were top set and the expectations were set pretty high, I do think we all got along really well and there was never really an unproductive moment. I'll miss Year 11 Science lessons with Tara, as we always went off topic and had such a laugh to the point where we became hysterical and the supply teacher would often walk over wondering what's going on! I'll miss Geography lessons (not the teacher though), because we hardly did any work during Year 11, but myself, Tara and Nadia were sat together and there was just endless chatter and jokes. It definitely helped get us through the hour and a half lessons every Monday afternoon! The same can be said with the girls for Health and Social lessons, particularly the double every Wednesday, because we did work really hard, but we had a laugh with our teacher who I bloody adore ( shout out to you Miss!), so it was the best of both worlds really.
The last thing I can think of that I'm sad about being over is PE. I know, I know, I never thought I'd say that, but honestly, Maisie completely saved me during those days. We got through it together and it was our chance to have a weekly gossip!
Whether I've given you a special mention in this post or not, it doesn't mean that you're any less important to me. In fact, regardless of whether we talked everyday or if we just made small talk during lessons, you have still been a part of my journey and I'm never going to forget any of you or the memories that we created together.
It may be the end of this chapter, but there's so many more opportunities to come and so many other chapters just waiting to be opened come September.
Lots of love always,


Thursday, 8 June 2017

All About Amie Skincare*


Over the past few months, I haven't been wearing makeup as much as I used to and I also haven't been practising my skincare routine. This has partly been down to the stress of revision and my GCSE exams, because it's left me with hardly any motivation for anything else.
Now that my exams are beginning to slow down a little (12 down, 6 to go!), I've started to put more time and attention into my blog whenever I get the chance. I've been planning brand collaborations in the background and today's post is the perfect example of that!
Before I got in touch with Amie Skincare, I'd seen them around when I've been searching the web or shopping and I'd heard of them through social media, but I'd never actually taken the time to do my research until a couple of weeks ago. For those of you who may be unaware, Amie is an all natural beauty and skincare range that's available to buy in Waitrose or through online retailers. The products are free from parabens, sulphates, mineral oils, petrochemicals and animal extracts, meaning that they are suitable for vegetarians and vegans. What a winner!
I was very kindly sent a couple of products to try out in the post for blogging purposes and so I'll talk you through my thoughts today on all 3 things.
Amie New Leaf Deep Pore Exfoliating Polish - £5.95. As far as I'm aware, I've never really spoken about my love for facial exfoliators and scrubs before. I used to use the St Ives Apricot one religiously for ages until it ran out and then I got sent this one to try by Amie! Honestly, I think it blows the St Ives option out the water. Never before have I liked an exfoliator as much as I like this one. I've used it every single day since I got sent it a couple of weeks ago, and it's actually almost completely run out! I'll definitely be repurchasing it time and time again. It has such a refreshing, uplifting smell and it's clear that there are no nasties going onto your face. It has a really nice texture to it, as I don't feel like it's too thin and greasy, but it's also not too thick and heavy - it's just perfect! There are little exfoliating beads, which I love it and it really does leave your face feeling squeaky clean, which is obviously what you want in a face wash! I'd say that it works best for combination to oily skin, as that's what mine is and it works a treat.
Amie DAYBRIGHT GLOW Brightening Sheet Masks - £6.99 (x3 in a box). I'm sure most of you have heard about the Garnier Mositure Bomb Sheet Masks by now, right? Although I've never tried the product myself, I've been intrigued by the whole sheet mask concept ever since. When I saw that this brightening one was in my package, I got so excited and I couldn't wait tot try it out! Just like the exfoliating polish, it has that really refreshing, uplifting smell that seems natural and pure. The mask goes on super easily and even though you look like a ghost for about 20 minutes, you can definitely notice a difference in your skin once you have taken it off. I like how you get 3 in each box, because you really do get your money's worth and they can last a good few weeks too.
Amie Petal Perfect Cleansing Micellar Water - £4.95. Ever since I can remember, I've started using micellar water instead of makeup remover wipes. I can't stand them anymore. They make my skin feel all polluted and dirty, which entirely defeats the whole purpose of them. Whenever I wear makeup, even if it's just a scrap, I always have to properly cleanse and exfoliate my face afterwards, otherwise I can't go to sleep because my skin feels so tacky. First of all, can we just appreciate how cute the name 'Petal Perfect' is? I love it! This gets my makeup off like a dream, all with just a couple of swipes from a cotton pad! I will admit that it does sometimes sting my eyes when I try to get my mascara off, but I think that every micellar water does that, so it isn't too much of a big deal! It also smells really fresh and clean and it does exactly what it's meant to do. Although it's a bit more expensive than the Garnier one and for a smaller amount, at least Amie aren't one of the brands that test on animals!
I hope this post has helped some of you! Let me know if you're going to try any of the products out.
Lots of love always,
Disclaimer: This post was written in collaboration with Amie Skincare. I was lucky enough to get sent these products to review for free. However, all thoughts and opinions are my own as always.


Thursday, 1 June 2017

Think Before You Speak

Unless you have been living under a rock for the past few months, you will probably have watched 13 Reasons Why on Netflix by now. I'm yet to finish Season 1, but the producers have already confirmed that they will be bringing out Season 2 at some point, so I better hurry up!
Although this post isn't solely based on the drama itself, I feel as though it's important to take some time to discuss the message behind it. Bullying, self-harm, sexual assault and suicide seem to be such taboo topics and I want to stop that and smash the stigma surrounding them all.
They are 4 major issues that I, and so many other people have struggled with, whether that be years ago, recently or even if it's an ongoing thing. The truth is, everybody has at least one issue that they struggle with in silence. Even if you think that somebody you know personally has a perfect life, I can guarantee that they deal with their own demons too.
In today's society, we don't always think before we speak. We are all so quick to judge and sometimes we can act carelessly, even when we don't mean to. Sometimes, I've said things that I perceive to be jokes, or simply a bit of 'banter', but then the person that was on the receiving end could have gone home in tears. People are incredibly judgemental and insensitive nowadays and they do things in the spur of the moment. This isn't okay. Your words and actions can hurt. You could push someone off the edge. You could be the reason that someone breaks down, questioning their self-worth every night before they go to sleep. Could you live with yourself knowing that you were the reason that somebody spiralled out of control, their mental health deteriorating as each day goes by?
I've been bullied before. Maybe you have? Your brother, sister, cousin, best friend? It's honestly one of the worst situations to be in and the way that it makes an individual feel is indescribable. Nobody deserves that - not even your worst enemy.
There are over 7 billion of us in this world. 7 billion is such an incredibly huge number. More people are being born every day. I certainly don't want any children getting born into a world full of hatred and fear. We all only get one life. We need to make the most of it.
I'm using my social media following in the way that I believe everyone should. People probably don't look up to me, as I'm just an average 16 year old girl, but I have an attitude that I hope everybody reading this post can adopt and pass on. I'm here to talk about what matters. I'm here to talk about taboo topics. I'm here to try and use my platform to make a difference and stand up for what I believe in. I'm here to use my voice and roar for what is right. People shouldn't be suffering in silence. It's 2017 and there are still horrific tragedies going on in the world. There are acts of terrorism happening, which should not be happening. I will never condone hatred or harm to others, whether that be humans or animals in any way at all. Innocent people are either taking their lives, or losing their lives every second. That realisation truly does break my heart and my thoughts, love and prayers go to anyone who has ever been affected negatively by anything, whether that's terrorism, racism, bullying, crime, violence, sexual abuse - anything.
Making a difference starts at home, with you. You can be the change you wish to see in the world. You can choose to be kind. You can choose to be caring. You can choose to try and be more positive and make others feel the same.
I'm going to be doing more of these posts over the coming weeks, because I really do feel like they could impact someone's life and encourage them to change things around for the better. Let me know what you think and whether it's helped you!
Let's finish off with a poem that I wrote a little while ago..
Not everybody will like you
Not everybody will understand you
Not everybody will treat you as if you are somebody
All of that is irrelevant
You need to be aware of your self worth
You need to radiate positivity
You need to smile through the sadness
Anything is possible
You can do absolutely anything that your heart desires
Lots of love always,


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