Sunday, 7 January 2018

Sharing My Secret...

Something that I've been keeping hush hush about for the longest time can finally be revealed, and I genuinely couldn't be more excited about that. 

In case you didn't already know...


Ever since I was a little girl, I've always loved reading, and writing of all sorts. I was mainly into the creative aspect of it, because my imagination is super crazy, but as I got into secondary school, I'd write a couple of diary entries here, and there, when I was going through a particularly bad patch, and then just place my focus onto English lessons. It's not that I lost the interest whatsoever, but it was automatically placed to the back of my mind, because I just didn't have the time, or the ideas, and quite frankly, I didn't have much reason to put in all the effort either. 

Wanting to write a book has been something that has always stuck with me. The idea has never disappeared, but I didn't ever imagine that I'd be announcing the plan at the age of 16. 

Although I've touched on the tough times I've faced in blog posts before, I've never really shared all the whole story, and I don't usually tend to share the personal poems that I write either. When I was going through the beginning of the drama, I was too young to properly read, or write, so I obviously didn't have that escape back then, but throughout my teenage years, I've always turned to writing. I find that it really helps me to put things into perspective, and it allows me to process things properly, and in some ways, rationalise the way that I'm feeling. That's why I do it for myself, but I also do it for other people. They may be able to relate, they may find comfort out of my poems, they make feel less alone knowing that somebody else has battled with similar demons. I know that I personally feel that way with other people's poetry anyway. 

The book is going to be called 'Intoxicated Minds', and there are a couple of reasons behind that. To me, intoxicated means out of control, overthinking, the madness of growing up, and minds is a collective term, referring to teenagers, and young people as a whole, or just every human in general. I also perceive intoxicated as meaning young people are poisoned by the societal standards, and expectations, but they aren't all necessarily conforming to them. 

I have also started thinking about chapters, and I've now got the 5 solid ones set in stone. They are: empathy, encouragement, empowerment, excitement, and experiment. How cool do they sound?! I wanted them all to start with the same letter 'e', because that symbolises emotions, and obviously, I want my book to be pretty damn emotional (both good, and bad!), because that's more realistic. 

I don't want to share too many more details, because it all is still very new, and exciting, and I don't want to give everything away, and ruin the surprise, but I just want to say that this really is a dream come true. I feel so happy, and hopeful, and so proud of myself for trying to do this (basically) on my own at such a young age. I have big dreams, and this has always been up there in my top 3, I'd say. 
Just keep your eyes peeled, as I'll always give you the updates as soon as I have them! 

Let me know how you feel about poetry, and whether you would consider purchasing my book once it's available! I would really appreciate all of the support, and all of the feedback I can get, because you guys are the best at showing the love.

Thank you for everything, and I hope you're just as excited about this whole project as I am!

Lots of love always,


Friday, 5 January 2018

My Goals For 2018

I genuinely can't believe that we're already nearly a week into 2018. Where in the world has the time gone?! It blows my mind, because I'm sure the years are just going by faster, and faster. 

A new year only means one thing - New Years Resolutions. Well, unless you're like me, and you don't believe in setting yourself unrealistic expectations to meet, because that's just asking for disappointment, right?

Instead, I'm going to be talking through just a couple of my goals for the upcoming year, as they are much more achievable on a personal level, and I'll feel much more pride, and satisfaction this way.

1. Continue to do well in my A-Levels. 

Whether this means in my coursework, or in any exams that I have, I want to put 110% effort into my first year of A-Levels. Sixth Form is proving to be quite a challenge at the moment, since starting in September, but I'm always willing to take on a challenge, and it's nothing overwhelming. You have got to do what you have got to do in order to succeed in the future, after all!

2. Push myself even more with my blog. 

During 2017, I worked incredibly hard on my content, and my social media pages. I worked with some lovely brands, and I gained quite a few followers too! However, I hope to just keep getting better, and better. I'd love to improve my photography further, try to post a couple of times a week, and work with more brands than I did last year. 

3. Finish writing my book, and have it ready for publishing by the end of the year. 
I'm working my arse off at the moment to make this dream come true, because I so desperately want to have my book put together by December, so it can be available for pre-order then, and therefore ready for my birthday in March. I'm still trying to finish off the content at the moment, as I don't want to rush any of the process, but it's looking very promising, and coming on well! I'll do a separate post about it on Sunday though, so keep your eyes peeled!

4. Get my first proper, paid job. 
At the moment, I volunteer for 3 hours every Friday at my local Marie Curie shop, as part of my DofE award. I love helping people, and it's my first bit of experience within retail, and working in the community. However, as much as I still want to focus on charities, I also want a paid job, so that I can make my own money, and get satisfaction, and pride out of that, but also afford to do fun things that I enjoy without having to ask my mum, or rely entirely on pocket money. 

5. Start learning to drive, and buy my own car.
EEEK, how exciting is this?! In March, I'll be turning 17, and as I live in the UK, that means I can legally start learning to drive from then on. My sister, being the babe she is, has said that she'll buy me some driving lessons to get me going, and my mum has already found me a potential driving instructor! I applied for my professional driving license the other days, so it's full steam ahead now. I'm not sure if I definitely want to buy a car once I've passed my theory, and my practical, but it's something I'm considering! 

6. Travel to some more places, and get out the house as much as possible. 
Even though it's harder to get out, and about during these colder months, I really want to put in more effort to make something of my life. I want to get out into the world, explore, go on more trains, and day trips, enjoy more concerts, and festivals. Of course, it's much more easier to do so in the Summer, and when it's warmer, but honestly, you have to make the most of each day, so I'm going to do as much as I can, whilst I still can. 

Those are all of the things that I can think of at the moment! Hopefully, I can give you all an update when we get to June, and then again at the end of December to see how many I've actually achieved, and whether there's anything else that I've done, which is worth mentioning.

Do you have any 2018 goals? If not, think of one now, and let me know in the comments below!

I hope you all had a wonderful New Year. It's onwards, and upwards now, guys. 

Lots of love always,


Sunday, 31 December 2017

2017: A Yearly Review

So, 2017 has come to an end. As always, the past 12 months have been a complete whirlwind filled with fun, and laughter, but also fear, and disaster. Most years turn out that way anyway, as I've learnt from experience. However, I do have to say that it's definitely been more good than bad on my behalf.

Just like I did last year (look here for the evidence), I'm going to be reflecting on 2017, and sharing some of my highlights with all of you. There were a lot, as you can see from the collage above, but I'm just going to talk about the ones that stand out the most to me.

January meant that I got a new phone (the 6s to be precise!), found out I'd passed my GCSE Business exam, shared my first article for Kiloran, which was published in February, aced my initial Sixth Form interview, and worked out how to add a personalised signature to the end of my blog posts!

February saw me go to Paradise Wildlife Park with 2 of my best friends for Valentines Day, reach 3.5k on Twitter, and I even started talking to a new friend! (Shoutout to you Christina)

March is my birthday month, so naturally, it was a pretty good one! I received my first Pandora ring as a present from my sister, got my first proper professional Sony camera, heard about the idea for a mental health magazine from a fellow blogger, which then turned into what we know now as Beautiful Minds, got on 2 buses to my grandparents by myself for the first time, and  made plans for the Summer months!

April brought with it my blog's 2nd birthday (!!!), a theatre trip to see Les Mis with my Auntie up in London, a cinema trip with my Auntie & Uncle to see Beauty & The Beast, and many positive, fun filled days with my friends!

May mainly consisted of getting ready for exams, and marking the end of secondary school, so it was quite eventful to say the least! I went as Little Red Riding Hood on the last day, ordered my prom dress, and clutch bag, did an online interview with Bloggerview, and received some exciting blogger mail from Amie Skincare, and Tisserand!

June was another month that stands out to me from this year. I started talking to one of my very best friends Liam Hinton (major shoutout to you, my love!), celebrated my best friend Tara's 16th birthday with cupcakes, and lots of selfies, started watching Love Island which became my Summer TV obsession, and had many FaceTime sessions, and phone calls with those that mean most to me. 

July was absolutely crazy amazing! I had my prom on the 3rd and had such a laugh with my best girls, found out I'd been shortlisted in 4 categories for the Teen Blogger Awards, visited Dover with my Uncle, got the title of Mental Health editor for Love from... magazine, went to my first festival (Wireless to be precise) and had the most fun with my friends, received a tee, and tote from Good Girl Gang, ordered  my first 2 poetry books (Milk and Honey, as well as Melancholy Mind), had Nandos for the first time, and visited Hever castle with my Aunt and Uncle!

August became filled with family time, getting blogger mail from OY! Skincare, getting 2 new piercings (rook and belly), going bowling with my friends, creating a personalised memory board for my bedroom, got my GCSE results, which were 1 A*, 2 A's, 2 B's and 3 C's, and a short, but incredibly lovely stay to St Ives with my Aunt and Uncle to end my Summer perfectly.

September always marks a new academic beginning. My first day as a Sixth Former went very well, I made some new friends there within my first few days, I received the Naked Heat palette as a present from my sister, I had a media kit made for me, and I even created my first professional CV!

 October consisted of a few spontaneous days/evenings with my friends, I started my weeks worth of Work Experience in a local residential care home for the elderly, and I spent time with my family, and friends, which is always important!

November saw me get the train on my own for the first time, and sort out an Operation Christmas Child box with my friend to give back to those less fortunate during what should be the most magical time of the year. One of the most significant highlights was going to see Bryson Tiller with the same friend at the end of the month, which was INCREDIBLE. Unfortunately, the next morning, my dear Granddad ended up in hospital, but I thank God, and all of the doctors/medical professionals for the fact that he pulled through, and is now much better. 

December marked the beginning of my charity work with Marie Curie, receiving, and giving Christmas cards, spending Christmas Day itself with my loved ones, going to Lakeside for the first time with my sister to hit the shops on Boxing Day, and then coming down to my Aunt and Uncles, where I'm currently writing this post to see all of the local festive lights, head up to London to see The Phantom of The Opera, which definitely exceeded my expectations, and now we're preparing to welcome in the New Year with a massive meal together before I go home later on!

And there we have it! That's a review of my entire 2017. I really hope that all of you have had a good year filled with love, positivity, fun, and laughter, but if not, that's okay. As of midnight tonight, you have a whole new 12 months to work with, so make the most of them, and start 2018 with a smile on your face, and hope in your year.

I'll be doing a blog post sometime next week with what I hope to achieve/experience next year, so keep your eyes peeled for that! Let me know what your highlights/best achievements have been from this year!

Happy New Year!

Lots of love always,


Sunday, 26 November 2017

Teen Talk: Dealing With Fake Friends


In the years since becoming a teenager, I've grown very aware as to how many people turn out to be fake friends. I used to be incredibly trusting, and always willing to impress anybody, but nowadays, I'd much rather mind my own business, and keep my circle small.

When you're going through secondary school, and ultimately, the phase of peer pressure, it can seem like you need everybody to like you in order to make yourself valuable as an individual. There's an overwhelming desire to get approval from everybody your age, especially those who are seen as being labelled 'the cool clique'.

All throughout primary school, and secondary school, I was never popular. None of the other children really had an interest in being my friend, and they didn't really care whether I liked them or not, because they had already formed their own group - a group that I wasn't ever going to be part of. At the time, it got to me. In fact, it got to me more than I would let on. I was very shy, and very reserved, so I wasn't exactly a joy to make conversation with, unless all you wanted in reply was a couple of stutters from a girl who's cheeks were as red as a tomato. I didn't go out much, I didn't watch Disney Channel religiously, and I didn't wear all the latest fashion. I was quite an outcast, really.

When I was in a little bit of a low place last September, and in a reflective mood, I wrote a blog post about being an introvert. It allowed me to get all of my thoughts out of my mind, so I was able to process them much more easily. If you're an introvert, or you're struggling with shyness, you may find it comforting, or even just somewhat reassuring. At least, I hope you do.

The thing is, you don't need validation from any of your peers. You just need to stay true to who you are. Friendships are empowering, and amazing if they are with the right people. They take time though. You don't just speak to someone once in a blue moon, and suddenly become joined at the hip. It's all about trust, communication, honesty, and to a certain extent, vulnerability. If someone is acting fake, talking about you behind your back, laughing at you, or insulting you, get rid. Don't even waste your energy on them. Don't bother giving all your time to them. They don't deserve it, not for one second.

I suppose cutting off fake friends is like moving on after a break up. Well, not exactly, but there are plenty of similarities. Don't ever give too much of yourself to someone straight away. See how they act within the first few months, see if they start opening up to you, and just take it slowly. Trust your gut, as well. If something seems a bit fishy, then it probably is. Basically just believe your inner instinct. Fake friends usually just want to spread gossip, and put you down at every opportunity they get, so anyone who does that isn't a true friend of yours.

I've come across my fair share of fake friends, but especially since leaving secondary school, I've realised that I'm much more likely to notice the signs, and so I stick with those in my circle, and always act more wary than I need to, just in case.

Hopefully this post has helped some of you. Fake friends are never any fun, but once you have got rid, you can make room for the better ones, which is exactly what I've done!

Lots of love always,


Wednesday, 22 November 2017

A Miraculous Moisturiser

Even though I've done a blog post about the OY! range (you can find that here), I felt like this miraculous moisturiser deserved a post of it's own.

Being 16 years old, and having already gone through puberty for a number of years, I've definitely noticed how my skin, and the condition of it has changed significantly during that time. It used to be incredibly oily, and problematic, but nowadays, although it does still get oily, and shiny once the evening has come around, it's no-where near as bad as it used to be - thank goodness!

I never used to really look after my skin, and I certainly didn't consider moisturising it. I think that a common misconception when you have oily skin is that you shouldn't dare to touch moisturiser, because that'll have the opposite effect, and therefore produce more oil. However, that's completely wrong! Everybody needs to moisturise, and everybody needs to look after their skin properly. The key is to tailor your moisturiser towards your skin type. If you have really, desperately dry skin, then use a thick, heavy duty moisturiser to pamper yourself. If you have oily-combination skin, like myself, it's better if you stick to a light-weight, thin moisturiser, just like this one.

There's been a couple of moisturisers here and there that I have thought are decent, or that I'd put in a top 5, but honestly, this one takes the crown! Not only does it come in really nice, simple, effortlessly cute packaging, but it also smells nice, and refreshing too. I either apply it with my fingers, or with a brush to properly blend it in, and I've used it most days for a couple of months now, which goes to show that a little pea sized blob does go a really long way.

It's the only moisturiser that I can say has genuinely worked for me, and I will continue to repurchase it for the foreseeable future. It's £11, but I'd say it's well worth every penny!
Have you ever tried anything from Green People's OY! range? What do you think?
Lots of love always,
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